went gym ytd. was a bit boring cos my mum onli agree to let me go if i brg my sis along.
so i couldnt really chat to harshaana or swee hwa.


i tink i m getting better at tolerating stuffs.

today wanted so much to go st john flag day. cos i wanted to hav an experience. but my mum dun let.

actually i do CIP stuff not because i wanted to get more CIP hrs to show off or wadsoever. i genuinely wanted to do service to the community n i enjoy those things.

wad almost made me lose a close fren is cos tt fren, actually saw thye class CIP list n used a mocking tone to say "XXX has a higher cip hrs than u, u no longer the highest haha"

as if i was doing cip to achieve the highest in the class.
i mean, we r close frens.

does she noe tt saying this hurts me a lot?
i forgive her, on account tt she has many troubling things on her own n mayb tt is y she din tink b4 she say anything.

i do cip because i enjoy it. after o levels, i will go n volunteer at SPCA, not because i wanted to compete cip hrs or get cip hrs, but because i enjoy it.

currently trying to go running every morn.

no sign of weight loss. -.- pathetic.

feel like buying lots of things from blogshops!

rosi is away for a few days, m missing her alr.

sharon n my sis both got fever. get well soon yeah?

cant wait for thurs! my sis's results release (: pray hard tt she gets gd results :D



just relink some peeps.
lazy to really blog sia.

btw, person A told me wad person B clarified with her. but i went to ask tt 2/1 person. i dunno who to trust lah. the 2/1 person is quite a gd fren n person B is not. yup. n 2/1 person ask me to giv my absolute trust n tt ppl speculate stuff.

dunno who to trust. i tink i trust tt 2/1 person more. but seriously when i set my mind on something, i will try hard to make sure i get to the bottom of things. lol.

cant make it for 2/1 chalet. sian.

had one chilli crabbie all to myself today haha. cos its very spicy. haha.

wads got into me, i dun noe.

i m really pissed over one matter.

yes, i swear i m grounded by my mum n cant go out with frens to hav fun. so far, i m sure i rejected invitations to 2/1 chalet, 2/1 movie outing, 3/1 chalet, pri sch 6D class bbq, rachael's birthday celebration with clique.

wad made me angry is, some ass go around telling ppl i went to mr wong's son's bday party. i swear tt i nvr heard of it b4, n i really din turn up. i dunno y this person is trying to tarnish my name, trying to make me look lyk a liar. wads more, tt person was NOT from 2/1 so even if there really was such a thing, how would tt person even noe?

i turns out tt the thing has spread n i told my close frens i was grounded. one of them smsed me n questioned me. apparently, person A told her to ask me cos she heard from person B abt this. i tink person B is the one who did spread tt untrue thing.

i din turn up for all the gatherings as i really is forbiddened to, i din lie to anyone.

i hav nvr offended this person. y is tt person trying to do this to me? n tt peson is from 3/1.
i mean, i really nvr go pick on anyone b4

so far harshaana is tt close fren who hav questioned me. i really hoped she believed me.

n tt person who framed me, i m going to ask person A to confirm who told her. if its really person B, tell u, i will confront u. i wan to noe the reason u're doing tis. n u noe who u r.

looks can be deceiving. u look so kind n nice on the outside. but deep down inside, u r really scary.

i dunno if i over reacting anot. mayb tt person is just blind tt's all. tt is y person B claim to c me?





lol. hope rachael loves the present the clique get for her. i tink there's me, peimin, sharon, rosi, chin kiong n dunno got gladwin anot. yeah. i was broke after this.
i heard they bought giant dog plushie, n a duck. din go with them like i said, GROUNDED.

rosi going to taiwan soon. she's gonna help me get some things there. really a big thank you.

haven been overseas for 6 yrs. nvr visit grandparents in malaysia for 6 yrs. wow.
no money no talk. correct?

haiz.

i look forward to an explanation asap. if not, tt person gonna get it. i fumed so much ytd tt i almost got heart attack. ask my sis, i was screaming n cursing tt person lyk shit.

shall end here. dun feel lyk doing hw sia.

i hav learnt a lot recently. really, i do.

a lot of life skills, way of thinking. i learnt tt frenship is nt jus abt taking, but giving too. i learnt tt frenship really is precious.

today bio ended at 11 instead of 1030
so they took the lib picts w/o me n harshaana.

i cried in sch. first time in this yr. i had been tryin to control myself in the bio lab when i knew tt they had finish with the phototaking. i was the one who organised it n i m mindful of wad others will tink abt me. i tot i would hav lost my reliability. got out n cried. i tink swee hwa was shocked. cos i was walking with the "i m gg to cry face" n when she talking to me i cant find a voice to reply.

but i m glad the teachers understood. they knew it wasnt really my fault n in fact, they felt bad to leave me out of it cos i was the one who get everyone tgt

let this off my chest.

had a lot of troubles bugging me recently, b it home or school. a bit drained n jaded as i cracked my brains to come out with one solution after another.

wanted to watch jennifer's body today but ya, my mum wans me go home.

i wan watch horrifying n gory movies sia.
cos nowadays i keep watching those horror movies tt came out in the past few yrs n seriously, nt scary at all.

i nid a movie tt can scare me out of my wits.

LOL.

ANYONE HAVE MACDONALDS MONOPOLY THING?? IF HAV THOMSON ROAD TOA PAYOH SHENTON WAY SCOTTS ROAD ORCHARD ROAD CAN TELL ME> I CAN EXCHANGE WITH RAFFLES PLACE OR ANYTHING U WAN>.<

seriously, me n swee hwa trying to collect. LOL. its gd to dream abt having 50 000 to spend.

almost cried today. mrs goh's last day.

MRS GOH:

thx for being such a great cca teacher who have guided me in cca matters n teaching me many things. u r truly a gd teacher whom i will rmb for life, even yrs aft i left anderson. i hope tt u can enjoy ur retirement n do come bac to visit lib ppl! we will all miss u!





yeah. aft mrs goh left dunno if is mr ng chee siew or ms lau taking over as overall in charge, or some new teacher. hard to find someone lyk mrs goh who doesnt scold but patiently explain.

i realise tt i always thank ppl aft i chat with them online haha.

harshaana, cheer up(: all of us r behind u so dun worry okay? although u wun tell us y u emo, i wan u to noe tt we care for u. ur teachers, ur parents, ur frens, which is us.


last day of sch, i din do as well as i hoped to, so i tink i wasted yr 2009.

yes, be urself day was fun cos its the first tym i had so much fun with 3/1 classmates tis yr.
esp the bamboo dance yeah?

haha
i tink i m beginning to like 3/1

but i love 2/1 08 forever lah.

whee.
when i see gays or les i get very freaked out. haha.

life is so shitty.

i feel worried but i cant tink of y. cos the matter kinda of slipped my mind but the worried feeling stays -.-

OMG

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepy today, dunno y.

i love harshie's new phone! its so damn damn cool sia

>.<

yay my peach is back!!! YOOOOOO!!!!!!

bac from the leadership talk

damn tired n bored

wasnt the talk tt boring, bt well, no one talk to me luh

ya. someone call my name two times jus to ask me pass consent form in front -.-

n i met nicholas n ashwini from pri sch.

our sch damn kiasu, 18 ppl go, other sch at most 5 -.-
so in the end we form one grp ourselves

lol.

really sincerely apologise to those ppl i hav hurt due to the mistakes i made on purpose.

pls accept my apologies, i dun wan to go on learning journeys with grp members ignoring me.