i hav learnt a lot recently. really, i do.

a lot of life skills, way of thinking. i learnt tt frenship is nt jus abt taking, but giving too. i learnt tt frenship really is precious.

today bio ended at 11 instead of 1030
so they took the lib picts w/o me n harshaana.

i cried in sch. first time in this yr. i had been tryin to control myself in the bio lab when i knew tt they had finish with the phototaking. i was the one who organised it n i m mindful of wad others will tink abt me. i tot i would hav lost my reliability. got out n cried. i tink swee hwa was shocked. cos i was walking with the "i m gg to cry face" n when she talking to me i cant find a voice to reply.

but i m glad the teachers understood. they knew it wasnt really my fault n in fact, they felt bad to leave me out of it cos i was the one who get everyone tgt

let this off my chest.

had a lot of troubles bugging me recently, b it home or school. a bit drained n jaded as i cracked my brains to come out with one solution after another.

wanted to watch jennifer's body today but ya, my mum wans me go home.

i wan watch horrifying n gory movies sia.
cos nowadays i keep watching those horror movies tt came out in the past few yrs n seriously, nt scary at all.

i nid a movie tt can scare me out of my wits.

LOL.

ANYONE HAVE MACDONALDS MONOPOLY THING?? IF HAV THOMSON ROAD TOA PAYOH SHENTON WAY SCOTTS ROAD ORCHARD ROAD CAN TELL ME> I CAN EXCHANGE WITH RAFFLES PLACE OR ANYTHING U WAN>.<

seriously, me n swee hwa trying to collect. LOL. its gd to dream abt having 50 000 to spend.

almost cried today. mrs goh's last day.

MRS GOH:

thx for being such a great cca teacher who have guided me in cca matters n teaching me many things. u r truly a gd teacher whom i will rmb for life, even yrs aft i left anderson. i hope tt u can enjoy ur retirement n do come bac to visit lib ppl! we will all miss u!





yeah. aft mrs goh left dunno if is mr ng chee siew or ms lau taking over as overall in charge, or some new teacher. hard to find someone lyk mrs goh who doesnt scold but patiently explain.

i realise tt i always thank ppl aft i chat with them online haha.

harshaana, cheer up(: all of us r behind u so dun worry okay? although u wun tell us y u emo, i wan u to noe tt we care for u. ur teachers, ur parents, ur frens, which is us.


last day of sch, i din do as well as i hoped to, so i tink i wasted yr 2009.

yes, be urself day was fun cos its the first tym i had so much fun with 3/1 classmates tis yr.
esp the bamboo dance yeah?

haha
i tink i m beginning to like 3/1

but i love 2/1 08 forever lah.

whee.
when i see gays or les i get very freaked out. haha.

life is so shitty.

i feel worried but i cant tink of y. cos the matter kinda of slipped my mind but the worried feeling stays -.-

OMG

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeepy today, dunno y.

i love harshie's new phone! its so damn damn cool sia

>.<

yay my peach is back!!! YOOOOOO!!!!!!

bac from the leadership talk

damn tired n bored

wasnt the talk tt boring, bt well, no one talk to me luh

ya. someone call my name two times jus to ask me pass consent form in front -.-

n i met nicholas n ashwini from pri sch.

our sch damn kiasu, 18 ppl go, other sch at most 5 -.-
so in the end we form one grp ourselves

lol.

really sincerely apologise to those ppl i hav hurt due to the mistakes i made on purpose.

pls accept my apologies, i dun wan to go on learning journeys with grp members ignoring me.

oh yeah. i had nvr been so crazy over something or someone.

ok. firstly, i stalked one person in my life ever (first time is in p5, second time is tis sept 13)

n i nvr tried to track anyone's particulars before haha. erm

i tink i giving up on the person aft tracking on the details.
i admit tt i noe the person since p5 at tuition, but haven seen the person since psle ended till sept 6 this yr. erm, ya, i dun forget easily.

especially ____

oh, i got to noe the sch the person is from. eh, shall not disclose, but turns out tt the person happens to b a real great runner tt comes in 1st in all the sch running competiton : 100 m 800 m 1500m

OMG!

top few in national competition sia.

freaking rich (tis i noe 4 yrs ago)

someone lyk tt will nvr giv me more than a look.
haha.
yeah, me n my damn dreams tt will nvr ever come true haha.

imagine how shocked i was when i saw tt.

but at least i let off a burden after seeing tt. dun nid worry abt tracking down the person
haha. nt heartbroken lah.
p5 is so long ago. no more one sided feelings lerh, jus very curious wad kind of person is behind the face...

exams overrr! Yoohooooo!

had to re do the lib stuff again today, after going to daiso! lol. i end up nvr buy anything but hav fun walking around.

i spent 2 hours doing it -.-
a bit half dead lerh.

my exams r over, but i knew i will do worse than SA1. meaning, i will b the last person in class in tink. all the three sciences i tink i nvr finish, the double maths oso. even my best subk hist i din do abt 12 marks to 17 marks. i tink my L1R5 sure is lyk erm... 40?
i dunno lah.

anyways, mrs goh asked to c me during the breaktime between the papers, n she asked to call phylicia n theresa. erm, theresa nvr answer, she decided tt harshaana shall go for the leadership course instead n this made mei shi damn sad luh. i oso damn sad, cos if mei shi go i got company. harshaana--...

haiz.

i bring her consent form still mus go so far look for her, i nt some maid rite? collect consent form for ya gd enough alr, dun dare pick my phone ask mumaizah answer.

ahh... these few weeks with sheryl n clique was very nice, had lots of fun laughing n suaning ppl. haha. at first i was worried cos add me inside become odd number very diff for many things lyk sitting in pairs blah blah, but now got casmelin (:

casmelin, do get well soon rest more okay? angelina oso.
thx to 5 of ya for giving me the care n concern when i nid it the most (:

i went to read all my past posts n i found out tt it used to b a bit funny n quite optimistic, but now its full of my dumb rantings, lyk the whole world owes me.

i nid to cheer up!

i made rosi sharon emo with me the other day when i was smsing them n rachael n peimin something 5 msg long, jus to say a sry n tell them i appreciate them, n tt they r the ones who had stood by me n gone thru thick n thin with me.

rosi n sharon right beside me, i was typing n hiding from them haha.
n really they were touched, i was touched by all of their replies too.
this is wad i call a perfect friendship.

actually, Tan Si Ting is a perfectionist. esp in friendships, she expects the best n will nvr tolerate anything tt she deemed as betrayal, selfishness, cunningness. etc.

she is someone who gets touched by a simple action, but get pissed by a small matter.

she does nt lyk it when her frens said something tt offended her, or is causing her bitterness.

yeah. tt's my perception of friendship. this kind of friendship exists in primary school only, when the pace of everyday life is not so fast.

i know friendships are rare, we shld treasure it. but how can i overcome wad is inside me?

good luck to my dear sis for her psle

today was a shitty day

yeah

i had to walk home alone n i chose to go by the yck way
more quiet n serene for my thoughts to start flowing.

i realise i din hav true frens rite here in anderson
close frens yes, but nt necessarily true frens

sometimes friendship feels lyk u r being made use of. n u r disposable after use
jus a comment aft wad i managed to sort out today

dunno y, i was walking along the way when i suddenly cry. i dunno y lah, jus sudden instinct.

yeah, the past few papers hadnt been gd for me.
esp bio. i went damn blank n dun rmb a single thing i studied.

hardly been getting smses, so i hardly had to reply.
thx to those ppl who answered my maths questions ytd thru sms (:

had a lot of sms left, smsed the 4E 5N seniors
today their last day
hmm, i wished them all the best n they replied.
was quite happy tt my inbox finally got something new.

mrs goh smsed too. she signed me, theresa, phylicia up for leadership course -.-
nt tt it wasnt gd, but its on 20 oct the third day of marking day. the first two days i hav chi extra lessons

so i wun get any post exam break -.-

n i pray hard tt i dun hav to speak in front of a lot of ppl
cos i really cant
i get all jittery n afraid
its all because of the humiliation i suffered in p3 by the teacher who made fun of me for half an hr in front of the whole class.
ya, i hate the word 'tourists'. she keep saying she heard 'tortise' lyk wth
from then onwards, i nvr lyk to ask questions in class

primary sch frens r really genuine.
i m always unreasonable n even if i m in the wrong, they used to giv in to me n apologise to me when it wasnt their fault.
n we kept in touch all these while n sometimes they even teach me stuff in studies.

the close frens i had now, ask me to teach them but when i nid help? i had to ask those ppl nt so close to me. cos my so called close frens will jus brush me aside.

i dunno lah. i m damn confused. mayb coming to Anderson is a wrong move eh?
or choosing the 9 subj stream

this is my personal opinion: even though other classes spend very little time tgt during lessons becos they r banded, they r more bonded. i guess its due to them having less competitiveness

i dunno. sad to say, i dunno if i was the one who changed or was it my frens. 2 yrs in lower sec was fine, but this yr they behaved really differently.

n someone nvr slp for 2 days n cuts herself.

haiz.

i m coming to sch very late these days... even though i woke up earlier.
i guess i m doing things very slowly these days

i dun wan end up last 6 in class but i tink i will ----again.

i m sure i did put in effort. yes. but i m sure i din do well.

i destressed today by watching the whole series of "i not stupid too"drama
xinying, its okay, i can still watch it with u after exams
lol

i hate ppl with sly 心机。jus a random comment, nt directed at anyone.
no offense to ppl who r 心机重。